I’m turning 46 year tomorrow !
I do not realise I’m turning 46 ! In my head I’m still that girl playing and telling me stories about later.
Well I’m in ‘later’ and I’m having fun. I feel good in my body and in my head, not fearing ‘later’ and certainly not wanting to go back.
From time to time I ask me some questions regarding the future, but never the past. I made my mistakes – who didn’t ?
But I build on the live lessons I learned. I took some decisions but I also took my responsibilities ! I learned not to please every one but to be pleased with me in the first place. If you like/love yourself you can start loving others.
When I take a look in a real or fictive mirror I find that the balance is positive.
Still have to work on some points, never fearing to accept a defeat and growing after that.
I feel spoiled because of the chances to survive were given to me after 2 serious illnesses, once when I was 16 and the other when I was 40. This illness forged my character to what I am and forced me to live here and now and dream of later.
"To me, life is like the back nine in golf. Sometimes you play better on the back nine. You may not be stronger, but hopefully you're wiser. And if you keep most of your marbles intact, you can add a note of wisdom to the coming generation."
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